Do You See Yourself?
by Meggan Larson
Last week I went to one of my best friends studio to help her with her new website. It’s a sewing studio and I have literally no skills in sewing but I do know how to input inventory so yay for us. Moving on…I sat down at one of her fancy desks and there was a mirror directly in front of me. There was one at every seat I guess to make it easier for the students to see my friend as she’s teaching them and they’re sewing. I sat there eating some sugar free gummies and kept accidentally looking at myself in the mirror and seeing my double chin, my round face, my tired eyes. I realized something then…
I realized that I don’t really see myself a lot of the time. I don’t spend a lot of time looking in the mirror unless I’m quickly putting some makeup on. By continuing to accidentally look into the mirror that day I felt like I really saw myself for the first time in a while. I laughed about it thinking that I might not eat off plan foods if I was staring at a mirror all the time. In reality though I saw a woman who was no longer defeated. A woman who continues to get back up when she gets knocked down. A woman determined to get to her goal regardless of how many times she needs to restart. And I saw a friend who was willing to go help another friend in crisis when I didn’t feel well and I probably should have gone to bed instead, though I was happy to help.
I spent nearly two hours looking at myself in that mirror and what I realized is that I so often just glance at myself and am disappointed with my outward appearance so I don’t look any further than that. I don’t look deeper than the physical. I don’t look into my own kind eyes or see the laugh lines that have come from years and years of laughing at silly things. I don’t look long enough to see the big smile I give anyone who makes eye contact with me. Will I regularly spend two hours looking at myself in the mirror? No. But I’m glad that I did that day because for the first time in a long time I saw myself and I liked myself. When is the last time you did?
~ Meggan 🙂
p.s. As always I’d love to hear from you so if you have any questions or comments please comment below or email me at Meggan@thelaundrymoms.com
Meggan Larson is a wife, mom of three, and challenge overcomer! Being diagnosed with a rare form of cancer and undergoing aggressive chemotherapy when her second born child was only three months old, gave Meggan an expected twist to her life. Dealing with pregnancy weight gain and the debilitating effects of chemotherapy, Meggan’s weight soared to over 228 pounds. Feeling humiliated with no desire to socialize, Meggan was desperate for a change. Shortly after losing 20 pounds with the Trim Healthy Mama program, Meggan found out she was pregnant with baby number three, which ended in an emergency C-section and unexpected hysterectomy. Despite the challenges she faced, Meggan has just celebrated her one year “trimiversary”, and her success of releasing just over 60 pounds! Meggan is confident that her success on plan is “doable” for anyone looking to gain back their health and wanting to live a trim and healthy lifestyle!