Loving Yourself Through The Storm
by Meggan Larson
I recently caught a glimpse of my reflection in the side mirror of my car as we were traveling as a family and my husband was driving. Immediate I flinched and looked away disgusted with myself. My double chin was so prominent as I was caught off guard. It’s like the moment you go to take a picture with your phone and accidentally hit it to selfie mode. GAH! It’s not a pretty surprise. I almost let it ruin my day. I was so close to shrinking down inside of myself and reflecting on all the poor choices I had made recently and how I wanted 75lbs to miraculously melt off of me.
It was in that moment that I heard a still small voice…
No, it wasn’t the voice of the Lord. (That’s where you thought I was going wasn’t it?) It was the voice of my 5-year-old son.
“Yeah, buddy?” (I said distractedly stewing in my self-hatred).
“You’re the most beautiful woman ever.”
(Insert the knife full of feels to my heart). It was in that moment that I remembered that he says that to me every single day. I was reminded that my kids have never called me fat or ugly. It’s probably never even occurred to them. To them, I’m mommy and I’m beautiful. How much time have I spent being mad at myself for being overweight? How much time have I wasted stressing my family out because mommy can’t find something adequate to hide her belly and doesn’t want to go anywhere? How many moments have I ruined being unsatisfied with where I am and longing for the day I’ve lost all the weight instead of focusing on what’s right in front of me?
Sure I have extra weight right now and I’d rather be thinner. I’d rather the weight loss be going a lot faster than it currently is. But is it worth focusing on for the next however many months until I’m at goal weight? And what kind of example am I setting for my kids if I’m moody and frustrated all the time because I’m unhappy with my body? I’m not at goal weight this summer and you know what? That’s going to be okay for me because I say it is. I’m going to head to the beach with my family and splash in the water with my kids (jiggles and all) because it will delight them and that should be more important than being mad at myself. I don’t want to look back in 20 years and wish I had spent more time loving myself instead of berating myself and creating awesome memories for my children instead of stressful situations.
I don’t know where you’re at with your body or if you’ve been feeling the way I’ve described above but if you have been then give yourself a break. We’ve got to love ourselves first and foremost and from that, learn to treat our bodies as well as we can. It’s not going to be perfect and sometimes it will even be messy. But the most important thing we can do is love ourselves anyway.
~ Meggan 🙂
ps…As always I’d love to hear from you so if you have any questions or comments please comment below or email me at Meggan@thelaundrymoms.com
Meggan Larson is a wife, mom of three, and challenge overcomer! Being diagnosed with a rare form of cancer and undergoing aggressive chemotherapy when her second born child was only three months old, gave Meggan an expected twist to her life. Dealing with pregnancy weight gain and the debilitating effects of chemotherapy, Meggan’s weight soared to over 228 pounds. Feeling humiliated with no desire to socialize, Meggan was desperate for a change. Shortly after losing 20 pounds with the Trim Healthy Mama program, Meggan found out she was pregnant with baby number three, which ended in an emergency C-section and unexpected hysterectomy. Despite the challenges she faced, Meggan has just celebrated her one year “trimiversary”, and her success of releasing just over 60 pounds! Meggan is confident that her success on plan is “doable” for anyone looking to gain back their health and wanting to live a trim and healthy lifestyle!